The fullness of John's breakdown came after John's parents picked him up. What happened later that night could not of been foreseen, even though John's delusions were intense. The Enemies greatest blow against John and his family was devastating.
Before I share the situation, I want to highlight how this would be used for good in John and his family's lives. John would learn how to deal with his breakdown through the wisdom of My Word. John's most important truth was how God can resurrect good out of bad to bless others. John would also learn that in dealing with the Enemy, full reliance on me and my strength would make him an over comer. Other truths that would be important were "Blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the Kingdom of God, " and "When I am weak, then I am strong." For John it was difficult to discern where the battle was coming from. John would learn to trust with his heart and not his head. Like Job, John would say, "Though God slays me, yet will I trust in Him." The pain would come from the Enemy, the joy and hope would come from Me.
The condition John was under was related to John's mental makeup, as well as the situation John was in. The genetic mental condition of John's Grandfather played through out John's family. The greatest blessing I could give John was "Those that are forgiven much, shall love much.” John would be constantly broken by what I am about to describe.
After John was picked up from college, his parents took him to his grandfather's fiancée’s house. While there his grandfather was also under a heightened state, also. While at supper, John was disassociating thoughts and reading things into paper articles. After the meal, John and his parents went to John's other grandfather house for the night. While there John started thinking about end times events. He came up with the idea that to solve the world's population problem, every living member of every family would gather into one family member. This was a major delusionary thought that would lead to extreme result.
John and his father were down in the basement. John's dad was crying and told John that he would need to go to the Psych unit of the hospital. Those tears would comfort John. He said that he would be okay and that he was willing to go. John's parents planned to go back to Cedar Rapids and get John help. While they were together, the television was on, showing something about dogs. John started thinking that cats and dogs were from other planets. Again a very delusional thought that would be used by the Enemy. At this point John's delusions were great, but showed no signs of violence to himself or others.
John was anxious and scared at this point. He asked if he could stay in his parents’ room on a cot. He did not want to be left alone. The thought of absorbing his family was still in his mind. As I watched this, I thought of the pain I went through for mankind. My Father watched, as My suffering was so intense. What happened next must be remembered as the role suffering played in life. John felt the sorrow of his own sins so intensely that he was not able to release all the guilt and pain for 23 years.
John slept in his parents’ room on a cot. In the night as John was not able to sleep, he heard his dad snoring. At one point, John heard a large snore and then silence. At that point John thought that he had absorbed his parent's souls. John felt an adrenalin rush that was like his mind was being lit up. He then left the basement and went upstairs. He then had a delusion he became a dog and was caught up into unclean thoughts. Then he had a thought that He was not a dog, but proudly said he was the master. He went into his grandfather’s room and looked into the mirror where he imagined the teachings of male and females coming together. His identity changed to that of an old girlfriend's nature being apart of him. He also thought that he had already absorbed his grandparents' soul. Then a very bizarre thing happened. John was at the base of his grandfather's bed. John then had multiple delusions. One delusion was that the body of his grandfather had become John. He thought that he was the female essence of his girlfriend. He then had an unclean sexual thought towards John. Following this thought John's grandfather moved. In a way John was hitting himself, as well as hitting someone other than his grandfather. The hits were rapid and John's grandfather's nose was broken. As John was leaving the room, John's parents entered the room. John looked upon them as zombies and started fighting with them. John's dad tried to hit John to stop him, but was unable.
John's grandmother called the police. The police came quickly; as they held John down he imagined seeing famous hurtful people and that some looked like pigs. They were able to sedate John and took him away in an ambulance tied down. John was taken to a locked unit at a Des Moines hospital. He remembers a man saying fly away. John thought that some way he could turn into a bird. Everyone thought that John must be on drugs, yet this was even more destructive than drugs. After a couple of hours, what had really happened came to John. He thought he acted this way because apart of his brain wasn't working. He was able to cry tears over what happened to his grandfather. He hoped that his grandfather was alive and that the worst possible thing had not happened.
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