Chapter 11

Not in the Head, But in the Heart

While in the hospital new delusions, as well as some of the old ones would kept John confused. John truly needed a rest from the pressures of life. John was kept in the locked unit and he made friends with two American Indians. One was an older man that John played cards with. The other Indian was John’s age. The younger Indian and John bonded in a friendship. John did not recognize his new friend’s mental illness, but thought he was there because of his Indian religion. John was intrigued by the Indian lifestyle. This would impact his world for the next three years.

A poem that would define John’s spiritual heart was:

Where are you going my friend,
Have you lost your way?
Come with me and let’s find today.
You say you’re scared down to your soul.
How may evil plan to mold,
A perfect heart towards a wayward goal.
Come let us meet the Savior,
In the heart of this new born Child.

Another important poem is:

“What Would The World Say”

What would the world say if love was to pass away?
No songs would ever be song,
This world would come undone.
Can’t you see,
It has to be,
That Love is the only way to make it through each day.

The people of the earth should enjoy the way of a beautiful day,
The laughter of children at play,
The romance of two young hearts,
And the truth of love that God imparts.

Although the delusional thoughts were severe, the poems shared some of My wisdom and some of My love. John would learn later the truth of Proverb 3:5, 6.

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding,

In all thy ways acknowledge him and He shall direct thy paths.”

John knew some confusion in his mind, but began to trust God with the essence of his heart. John did not experience the fullness of the guilt that the Enemy sought to condemn him with. John also learned that those who are forgiven much, shall also learn to love much. Valuable insight was the concept of non-righteousness. Non-righteousness meant John could not look down upon anyone, because he had experienced seeing himself as one of the worst of sinners.